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Sun Dec 13, 2009, 6:18 AM
Christmas

It's nearing Christmas, my birthday is very near and all is good. It's freezing outside but that doesn't matter as I much prefer being cold than hot, on account of being able to add as many layers as possible to keep warm instead of stripping off a finite amount if I'm too hot.

Christmas for me is a little bit different to what people usually experience. I don't visit my immediate family as they live in America so I usually travel to see my more local family in Coventry and spend Christmas at my oldest sister's house, which is always amazing. I feel like I get spoiled there but it's only once a year, so its allowed.

However this year is going to be a first for me as I'm spending my Christmas at my girlfriends house with her family. I'm not sure what to expect but its a hell of a lot closer to home which is a good thing considering I'll be walking there on Christmas day. I'm actually looking forward to the walk itself quite a bit. Considering it's Christmas it should be pretty dead outside which will feel odd. Plus you never know, it could actually snow!

I've used all my available holidays at work to book the week before Christmas day off, which I think was pretty much required of me considering I'll be back in work from the 27th doing overtime. Christmas overtime will be all right as people don't tend to work too hard during it and we'll all get triple pay for the time we work. Not that I have anything to buy with that money. I've just spent a lot of cash on a brand new monitor for my PC as my very old one had finally died. A new monitor was also the only thing I really wanted so I've not asked for anything from anybody this year so if I do receive any gifts, they'll all be surprises.

My new monitor is absolutely ace. My old one was bought 5 years ago so pretty much anything I could have bought would have been better than it but I decided to get something I really wanted. So I now own a stupidly big, and very high resolution monitor, one which will serve me well when I actually get around to creating something artistic. I'm not an active artist on deviantArt as people who watch me would probably know but there is a new year coming up and with it a brand new resolution.

So here's to a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all!

  • Mood: Christmas Spirited
  • Listening to: Groove Salad
  • Drinking: Rio
So after submitting my latest piece [link] I got a ton of good responses to it and even an offer to join a club. So now I'm proud to be able to add something to the bottom of these rarely updated journal posts of mine.

Oh yeah, if you're not poor like me and you like my latest work, then please buy a print, every little helps ;)

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Member of:
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  • Mood: Amazed
I'm experimenting with the idea of making some of my current artwork, and future artwork avaliable to print. I'd very much appreciate the added income as little as it may be, but it would also give me an incentive to submit more often. As anyone who watches me should know I don't submit enough, so maybe if I was making money from it, it would give me the push I need to paint and submit things.

So I'm wondering if anyone has an opinion on this and what previous pieces they'd like to see prints of. If heres enough interest I might purchase a premium print account which would almost guarantee I get a lot of new artwork on here to print. Although it would probably be more space art than anything else, as big posters like that look awesome and I'm in the mood to start that up again.
  • Mood: Artistic
Right sluggers, go here and appreciate my friends work or else! ---> [link]
Seriously though, I'd much appreciate it if you can take the time to look through her gallery, maybe you migt find some stuff you like and can comment/fav/watch etc etc.
  • Mood: Rage
If you have some free time I strongly urge you to check out this deviant gallery [link].

This is my mum's deviant account that I set up for her because I believe more people should enjoy her paintings than just friends and family. So hopefully you'll enjoy some of them too.

A drastic improvement in my art...

Mon May 1, 2006, 4:51 PM

Prime


So as I said, I believe withing the next few weeks you may find one hell of an improvement of the standard of art I upload. This will mainly be caused by the addition of a tablet into the equation. I decided a good thing to buy with my student loan, would be a wacom tablet of some kind as I know I can draw better with a pen than a mouse. So I decided to get a graphire 4 as it wasn't too expensive, now was it too featureless. I've played around with tablets before but I think after getting this and getting used to it, I'll beable to create some really cool pictures.

All I have to do now is wait for it to arrive, should be on Wednesday or Thursday. Then I'll have a play around with it in painter IX and photoshop. Hopefully I'll have something to upload before the weekend. Also I'd like to ask the o'so few people who actually read this, for any links to tutorials or advice for using a tablet. I'm aiming to paint with it in a similar style to that of:

:iconukitakumuki: and :icondavid-holland: and :iconsinix: etc.

So yeah, I'm looking forward to getting this tablet and hopefully getting some nice pcitures uploaded using it.

Also go buy KARAS The Prophecy, you won't regret it.

Gallery Update - I've decided that my deviations are all inconsistant so I've moved like half of them to the scraps folder and left only the ones I thought were either just good or have something to do with the whole sci-fi mecha thing I have going on, along with my celetrial art too.
  • Mood: Unheard
  • Listening to: Xenogears -Small of two pieces
  • Watching: Karas!!!!!!!!! <---Teh awesomeness

I better update this thing!

Sun Apr 16, 2006, 8:17 PM

Prime


So yeah. I know I haven't really been doing anything creative these last few wee.....months but
I have been checking on my page everyday, and looking at my watcher's stuff. Must say people
are really bloody talented. I mean, I find it so damn hard trying to keep doing something, even if
I like doing it.

For example. I decided I wanted to paint a warhammer 40k army up. I've painted warhammer
since I was kid on and off and never actually got round to finishing much. I don't know why, but I
got back in the mood to do it again. So I bought myself a battle force of tau. I began painting them
and noticed that I was painting them really fecking well. I mean, compared to my older tau modles
I painted a few year ago when they first came out, these looked like golden deamon standard! But
I only managed to paint 4 firewarriors fully, and 8 more bodies and torsos, and thats it! Lost the urge to paint them, even though I really like doing it.

To make things worse I decide to fix this problem by having a break from the tau, so I buy myself Imrik, lord of the dragons, riding a dragon. Tis a warhammer fantasy model. Very pretty. I thought painting this would be a good idea to break from the tau. So I build it, undercoat it (using an airbrush lol) and then begin painting it. I wanted to go for the same 'eavy metal team look. White and blue. It took me an entire weekend to do the fecking upper part of the head!!! Just that, didn't even manage to do the teeth or lower jaw! And now I've lost the damn urge to carry on with it.

I mean, I'm like this with a lot of things. I wanna know why I can't stick to one thing and see it through to the end. I have sooo much free time, yet I choose to just sit here and faf around doing nothing. I play a game I like for like a few days. Then for no reason I stop! Then don't touch it for ages. I spent £300 recently getting my computer to run Battlefeild 2. I needed a new graphics card you see. So I get one, it works...for a while. It just had a weird problem. I thought it could be the power pack being under powered. So I get a new one. It works better, but still problems. Weeks later I get round to buying another graphics card! This one fecking worked thank god but then what have I got to show for it! I play a game that certainly ins't Battlefield 2, and basically leave that to gather dust! Legend of Mir doesn't need a new fecking graphics card mike! Why the hell did you buy all that and then play mir again.

I'm seriously doubting myself here. I mean, I've never had a job and this is probably the reason why. Well maybe not, I don't partically want one and I don't need one, but when I do, I'm gonna be sooo screwed when I lose the will to do that, just like I've done with countless things in my life. Many of which are keeping up with my hobbies and interests. I think it boils down to what it says on my deviantART page, I'm a deviant with many talents. I may be a jack of all trades but hell am I my master at any of them. Imean, you have to bebale to stick with somin for a while before you an do that right?

Man, I didn't actually mean to rant like that. But thank god I noticed I had done. I've got sooo much more crap I could bring up right now. Might be a good idea to get it all off my chest, but I'll leave that to my poor friends in uni hehehehe. It's easier talking to someone, rather than shouting it out across the internet to people who ain't even gonna reply.

So yeah, I'll try be more active in future, though that's gonna turn out to be a lie, well actually it ain't, I did say try, so I guess I've already declared I'm gonna fail at it eventually. Anyways enjoy this for the mean while [link]

c ya!

Gallery Update - I've decided that my deviations are all inconsistant so I've moved like half of them to the scraps folder and left only the ones I thought were either just good or have something to do with the whole sci-fi mecha thing I have going on, along with my celetrial art too.
  • Mood:
  • Listening to: Gundam Seed stuff
  • Watching: Gundam Seed Destiny, Karas

Sleep paterns

Tue Jan 10, 2006, 4:39 PM

Prime



So I decided to make a new picture to put in my journals seeing as it's 2006 and all.
The thing is its 5:31am at the moment and I'm not tired. This is due to the fact that
I've been fecking up my internal body clock so much lately for two reasons:

1) Halo 2 - No one can understand the joys of completing that damn game on co-op
and legendary until they've stayed up for 30+ hours slowly but surely advancing in the campaign. On another note, linking two xbox's up and having 4 vs 4 team games almost every night with the lads is too good to be true.

2) Need for Speed: Most Wanted 2 - Now I haven't even touched this game yet, but for some reason it's amazing to watch. Which is exactly what I've been doing for the majority of today/yesterday.

Now as you can see those reasons are all about computer games. Now what I wanna know is the
easiest, quickest and most interesting way of reseting my body clock. I mean seriously, the past
umpteen days I've had an xbox controller in my hands 90% of the time and the other 10% I'm
sleeping at like 11am till 6pm.

Normally I wouldn't give a crap about this but I have some exams I need to do very soon not to
mention I'll be back at uni soon. So any ideas would be grateful.

All the best in the new year!


Gallery Update - I've decided that my deviations are all inconsistant so I've moved like half of them to the scraps folder and left only the ones I thought were either just good or have something to do with the whole sci-fi mecha thing I have going on, along with my celetrial art too.
  • Mood: Hostile
  • Listening to: CowboyBebop stuff
  • Watching: Naruto, Bleach, Suzuka

1000 Page Views!!!

Mon Dec 19, 2005, 5:58 PM

Prime Space



OMG!! At the rate that my page views were going up, I thought I'd never reach
1000! I just wanna say thanks to all my watchers and to those who just
randomly visited my gallery. It means a lot to me.


  • Mood:
  • Listening to: CowboyBebop stuff
  • Watching: Naruto, Bleach, Suzuka

B-day

Thu Dec 15, 2005, 8:14 PM

Prime Space


Well b-day was a blast, got quite merry and a had a really good time.
No girls however, which is a shame but fun nonetheless.

On another note, I'll be helping out a friend with some artistic stuff, so keep an eye out.

  • Mood:
  • Listening to: CowboyBebop stuff
  • Watching: Naruto, Bleach, Suzuka

Tis my b-day tomorro

Wed Dec 14, 2005, 11:52 AM

Prime Space



Hehehehehehe, I'll be 19 tomorro, then I think Ican safely say that I'm not young anymore.
So as a result of the whole b-day thing, I'm going to get just a little bit smashed tomorro.
Thank god for the universities cheap booze.



Yeah the plan is as follows:
    1) Go to Liverpool, finish and hand in assignments
    2) Go find an all you can eat chinese place somewhere and have lunch with mates
    3) Go to pub (The Augustust John to be exact, or just the AJ) and have a fine selection of real ales
    4) Wonder to the guilds bar (the Liver Bar to be exact) and have more beer, based soley on the fact
its £1.20 a pint!
    5) Crawl back to the AJ after realising a proper pub crawl ain't happening and we can only make it to the AJ
    6) Have a few more beers, make a lot of noise and generally have fun
    7) blurry
    8) Go home
    9) Paly halo linked up across two rooms until we all die
    10) Go to sleep

So wish me luck!!!!!

  • Mood:
  • Listening to: CowboyBebop stuff
  • Watching: Naruto, Bleach, Suzuka

Prime Space


...well I just think I should give up and just be cool for a while. Boyfriends kinda get in the way right? ah well you never know.

On a completely different note, I went to my first J-Pop party
last night and it twas very, very very, fun, coz I was
very, very, very, dru....merry! :D Didn't get drunk at all and still had a really good time.
Also I've decided that university is amazing. Evveryone who reads this and isn't going
to go, reconsider now damn it! It is the shizzle!!!! The cheap booze at the
various pubs and bars should be more than enough to change your mind!!!!
Oh yeah, anyone doing the same course as me, computer science that is,
I salute your ass, we will inherit the world!!!

That is all...for now.


  • Mood:
  • Listening to: Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek
  • Watching: Naruto, Bleach, Suzuka

Prime Space



So I'm kinda made up today because I've made a new friend in my "class" in Uni.
Not every day you have a girl slap your cap on your head from behind you for no
reason other than it was irrestible. At the time when I turned around and saw who
it was I was kinda shocked at the whole cuteness of the situation.

From that we somehow started talking about all sorts of things and she pratically
made it obvious to me to ask her out. Well maybe not but she made at least very
easy to do as she was asking where are live music clubs in Liverpool, and that shes
into indie rock. She also plays guitar, and as you all well know, I'm in an indie rock
band so it wouldn't be hard for me to talk to her about stuff related to that, or for me to
invite her to gigs and stuff.

Basically she's very pretty, cute, easy to talk to and has a few common interests with me,
so, I'm gonna ask her if she'd like to go out sometime so I can take her to all the live music
venues. WISH ME LUCK
:w00t:  :w00t:  :w00t:

On another note, I've been drawing a lot of manga lately in lectures and stuff, and I'm starting
to finalise some characters in a story I'd like to write. So when I get there designs properly done
I'll upload em for ya!!


  • Mood:
  • Listening to: Strong and Strike - Toshiro Masuda
  • Watching: Naruto, Bleach, Suzuka, Ranma 1/2

Just a little fun

Sat Sep 24, 2005, 8:52 AM

Prime Space
...some are just down right phycopathic, two-faced, demon eyed, foul mouthed bitches that they make you feel like such an idiot because you bothered to love them when you were going out then decided it would be good idea to confess their love for someone else, in front of me and the someone else, right before we're about to go on stage for a gig, whilst the someone else was the bands fucking drummer, and then expects me to be cool enough about it to play on fucking stage.

Now theres a load of other shit flying about, mainly making me feel like shit because I bothered to trust her even when the truth was just a simple equation of putting two things together. I still trusted her, then she says to me after she told me the news that one of the reasons was because I didn't trust her.

I also mentioned she was phycopathic and thats no understatement. Even though I'm heart broken, angry, and depressed and wanted to go home and forget about the gig, she tried to force me to play by saying if I don't she'll call the police and say I was abusing her! I mean what the fuck is with that, she should be thinking great, I've got what I want at the extent of mike's happiness, the bands future and everything else, but no, thats enough for the mother of the spawn of satan. On another note, the drummer in this whole mess never thought to himself about the consequences are letting someone elses girlfriend apparently fall in love them. I mean, he's just fucked up our bands future because either he's quitting or I am, though I'm more expendible, it's unfair that I should even have to make that decision. The cheeky pric also thought it would be a good idea to try and hug me and say he's sorry, I guess I was "so lucky" to be too angry at my ex that I didn't start a fight.

Well so the night went shit in general, I went home obviously and my ex got what she wanted, and I want her to suffer so much for what she's done to me, not just then but for a whole month of akwardness where this whole fucking mess began. But theres nothing that I can do other than the hope that the "drummer" realises what I failed to realise for 3 years that shes a fucking insane bitch and he should just stay out of it. I mean, why do guys do that, they become part of a plot to ruin one boyfriends life so they can get involved with the girl knowing full well that if she can do it to them, then she's going to do it to him too, just a matter of time. I should know about it.

We've broke up in the past for the same sorta reason, but a lot less heartbreaking, and then she's come crawling back after a 4 or 5 months of a failed relationship, which she had cheated on the guy too, and I'm too fucking in love with her to take that and make the simple descision of no, but I still went out with her again, and then it happens again, thats why I'm such an idiot. Anyway, sorry to blow your mind wide open with all this shit, theres a ton more stuff to say but you'll probably fall asleep or commit suicide or somin.

P.S. Gemma if you've stumbled across this entry whilst desperately trying to hold onto a few things that remind you of me then get bent you fucking lieing whore!!!!



Just playing with all the cool things you can do with journals.
I hope this turns out all right.
Hmm centred text looks so cool. What else should I do?
I know!
I'll italic it! Hee Hee :w00t:
So, when you get the chance have a look at my journal
page and add some random stuff to the shoutbox
and vote on my poll. Come on it's just a bit of fun....
Pretty please ^^;


Oh and did you notice I added some thingy so you don't have to read
that heart warming message about my ex anymore unless you want to.
Well, my work here is done.

Oh I almost forgot. I went out last night to Liverpool,
went to a few bars, then ended up in the Kray
headbanging all night on the bottom floor :headbang:
Twas awesome, but as a result my neck now hurts...
Serves me right really, but I had fun, hopefully next
time I'll beable to drag some more people with me and
we'll start early. That way by the time it starts getting good
we'll all be too wasted to give a crap about who, why, or how
we're dancin and we'll have a really good time! ;p

  • Mood:
  • Watching: Gonna watch Charie and the Chocolate Factory soon

Yay! I'm subscribed again!!!

Fri Sep 23, 2005, 12:05 PM
YAYNESS!! So I've decided to subscribe to DA. Only for a while but at least I get to view big thumbnails and stuff, so I'm happy. On another note I start my course on monday at University, should be alright. Got to learn Java so I'm looking forward to that.

On another note, I'm going out tonight with some friends and hopefully I'll have a good time and get wasted lol. Hopefully.

Still pissed off over my ex so I'm going to leave that message up again, untill I'm satisfied that she has read it, sorry guys but you'll just have to put up with it.

==================================================================

Women are evil but...
...some are just down right phycopathic, two-faced, demon eyed, foul mouthed bitches that they make you feel like such an idiot because you bothered to love them when you were going out then decided it would be good idea to confess their love for someone else, in front of me and the someone else, right before we're about to go on stage for a gig, whilst the someone else was the bands fucking drummer, and then expects me to be cool enough about it to play on fucking stage.

Now theres a load of other shit flying about, mainly making me feel like shit because I bothered to trust her even when the truth was just a simple equation of putting two things together. I still trusted her, then she says to me after she told me the news that one of the reasons was because I didn't trust her.

I also mentioned she was phycopathic and thats no understatement. Even though I'm heart broken, angry, and depressed and wanted to go home and forget about the gig, she tried to force me to play by saying if I don't she'll call the police and say I was abusing her! I mean what the fuck is with that, she should be thinking great, I've got what I want at the extent of mike's happiness, the bands future and everything else, but no, thats enough for the mother of the spawn of satan. On another note, the drummer in this whole mess never thought to himself about the consequences are letting someone elses girlfriend apparently fall in love them. I mean, he's just fucked up our bands future because either he's quitting or I am, though I'm more expendible, it's unfair that I should even have to make that decision. The cheeky pric also thought it would be a good idea to try and hug me and say he's sorry, I guess I was "so lucky" to be too angry at my ex that I didn't start a fight.

Well so the night went shit in general, I went home obviously and my ex got what she wanted, and I want her to suffer so much for what she's done to me, not just then but for a whole month of akwardness where this whole fucking mess began. But theres nothing that I can do other than the hope that the "drummer" realises what I failed to realise for 3 years that shes a fucking insane bitch and he should just stay out of it. I mean, why do guys do that, they become part of a plot to ruin one boyfriends life so they can get involved with the girl knowing full well that if she can do it to them, then she's going to do it to him too, just a matter of time. I should know about it.

We've broke up in the past for the same sorta reason, but a lot less heartbreaking, and then she's come crawling back after a 4 or 5 months of a failed relationship, which she had cheated on the guy too, and I'm too fucking in love with her to take that and make the simple descision of no, but I still went out with her again, and then it happens again, thats why I'm such an idiot. Anyway, sorry to blow your mind wide open with all this shit, theres a ton more stuff to say but you'll probably fall asleep or commit suicide or somin.

P.S. Gemma if you've stumbled across this entry whilst desperately trying to hold onto a few things that remind you of me then get bent you fucking lieing whore!!!!
  • Mood:
  • Listening to: Sing for Absolution
Erm, well I'm starting university next Wednesday, at Liverpool. So I'm probably going to be a little bit more busy than usual, I don't know exactly, is Computing Science a difficult subject? Well if it is I'm screwed, if it's not then I should be just as active.

On another note, I'm really starting to feel the effects of lonelyness. I've had a few friends come over and I've tried my best to go out as much as possible with them. Though I'm kinda hindered by the lack of money I have, £46 to be exact, and they all have jobs god damn. I've been looking for like ages, though not very intensly. But I would have expected a reply from the Co Op of all places. I guess it's not in God's great scheme of things for me to have a job (I'm not religious btw). Though I will make it my mission to go to the Next Krazy House all nighter if it's the last thing I do!!! So anyone wanna go to that give us a shout!!

Erm, not much else to say I think...Oh my friends given me like a hundred marvel posters for my house, how cool is that, though I lack blue-tack >.< So they're just sitting there gathering the clouds of dust from my house. Believe me, it wont take long before they blend in with the surrounding dust lol, well maybe that's an exageration. There is like the sexiest DareDevil poster ever in there, not sexy I'm gay sexy, but just sexy!!

Well I'm still pissed off about the whole girlfriend thing so I'm gonna leave that heart warming message on here as well.

==================================================================
Women are evil but...

...some are just down right phycopathic, two-faced, demon eyed, foul mouthed bitches that they make you feel like such an idiot because you bothered to love them when you were going out then decided it would be good idea to confess their love for someone else, in front of me and the someone else, right before we're about to go on stage for a gig, whilst the someone else was the bands fucking drummer, and then expects me to be cool enough about it to play on fucking stage.

Now theres a load of other shit flying about, mainly making me feel like shit because I bothered to trust her even when the truth was just a simple equation of putting two things together. I still trusted her, then she says to me after she told me the news that one of the reasons was because I didn't trust her.

I also mentioned she was phycopathic and thats no understatement. Even though I'm heart broken, angry, and depressed and wanted to go home and forget about the gig, she tried to force me to play by saying if I don't she'll call the police and say I was abusing her! I mean what the fuck is with that, she should be thinking great, I've got what I want at the extent of mike's happiness, the bands future and everything else, but no, thats enough for the mother of the spawn of satan. On another note, the drummer in this whole mess never thought to himself about the consequences are letting someone elses girlfriend apparently fall in love them. I mean, he's just fucked up our bands future because either he's quitting or I am, though I'm more expendible, it's unfair that I should even have to make that decision. The cheeky pric also thought it would be a good idea to try and hug me and say he's sorry, I guess I was "so lucky" to be too angry at my ex that I didn't start a fight.

Well so the night went shit in general, I went home obviously and my ex got what she wanted, and I want her to suffer so much for what she's done to me, not just then but for a whole month of akwardness where this whole fucking mess began. But theres nothing that I can do other than the hope that the "drummer" realises what I failed to realise for 3 years that shes a fucking insane bitch and he should just stay out of it. I mean, why do guys do that, they become part of a plot to ruin one boyfriends life so they can get involved with the girl knowing full well that if she can do it to them, then she's going to do it to him too, just a matter of time. I should know about it.

We've broke up in the past for the same sorta reason, but a lot less heartbreaking, and then she's come crawling back after a 4 or 5 months of a failed relationship, which she had cheated on the guy too, and I'm too fucking in love with her to take that and make the simple descision of no, but I still went out with her again, and then it happens again, thats why I'm such an idiot. Anyway, sorry to blow your mind wide open with all this shit, theres a ton more stuff to say but you'll probably fall asleep or commit suicide or somin.

P.S. Gemma if you've stumbled across this entry whilst desperately trying to hold onto a few things that remind you of me then get bent you fucking lieing whore!!!!
...some are just down right phycopathic, two-faced, demon eyed, foul mouthed bitches that they make you feel like such an idiot because you bothered to love them when you were going out then decided it would be good idea to confess their love for someone else, in front of me and the someone else, right before we're about to go on stage for a gig, whilst the someone else was the bands fucking drummer, and then expects me to be cool enough about it to play on fucking stage.

Now theres a load of other shit flying about, mainly making me feel like shit because I bothered to trust her even when the truth was just a simple equation of putting two things together. I still trusted her, then she says to me after she told me the news that one of the reasons was because I didn't trust her.

I also mentioned she was phycopathic and thats no understatement. Even though I'm heart broken, angry, and depressed and wanted to go home and forget about the gig, she tried to force me to play by saying if I don't she'll call the police and say I was abusing her! I mean what the fuck is with that, she should be thinking great, I've got what I want at the extent of mike's happiness, the bands future and everything else, but no, thats enough for the mother of the spawn of satan. On another note, the drummer in this whole mess never thought to himself about the consequences are letting someone elses girlfriend apparently fall in love them. I mean, he's just fucked up our bands future because either he's quitting or I am, though I'm more expendible, it's unfair that I should even have to make that decision. The cheeky pric also thought it would be a good idea to try and hug me and say he's sorry, I guess I was "so lucky" to be too angry at my ex that I didn't start a fight.

Well so the night went shit in general, I went home obviously and my ex got what she wanted, and I want her to suffer so much for what she's done to me, not just then but for a whole month of akwardness where this whole fucking mess began. But theres nothing that I can do other than the hope that the "drummer" realises what I failed to realise for 3 years that shes a fucking insane bitch and he should just stay out of it. I mean, why do guys do that, they become part of a plot to ruin one boyfriends life so they can get involved with the girl knowing full well that if she can do it to them, then she's going to do it to him too, just a matter of time. I should know about it.

We've broke up in the past for the same sorta reason, but a lot less heartbreaking, and then she's come crawling back after a 4 or 5 months of a failed relationship, which she had cheated on the guy too, and I'm too fucking in love with her to take that and make the simple descision of no, but I still went out with her again, and then it happens again, thats why I'm such an idiot. Anyway, sorry to blow your mind wide open with all this shit, theres a ton more stuff to say but you'll probably fall asleep or commit suicide or somin.

P.S. Gemma if you've stumbled across this entry whilst desperately trying to hold onto a few things that remind you of me then get bent you fucking lieing whore!!!!
Is time a female or a male? If it had to be one or the other what would it be? Man I'm weird
200+ views. Its about time too!
So yeah, I'm been trying to figure this out for the past few days but I don't know whats happened. I'm a subscriber but I haven't even done anything and all I can think of is that someones done it for me. Well whoever that is, THANKS A LOT, you've made DA so cool for me!!!!
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